Letting Go

Zooming along

wind in my hair

sun on my

back

smile

on

my 

face.

Why did

I fight

this

for

so 

long?

My husband

rediscovered

the joy

of being

on a bicycle

free

childlike

alive

about four

years ago.

The next year

I received

my own ~ 

a birthday

gift.

I fell in love
with it, too!

So

this year

when he

started

shopping for

a tandem

{bicycle-built-

for-two}

why did I

panic

a bit

inside?

Simple:

C.O.N.T.R.O.L

No

brakes ~

being stoker

versus driver

AND

clip on

pedals!

But,

for him,

I let go

of the

fear

of not being

in control!

And it's 

wonderful

being

part of a team...

chatting

about life

or riding

in comfortable

silence,
our legs pumping
in unison,
observing 

Mother Nature

in her 

summer glory.

{We always stop for coffee...
and make new friends!}

Which made

me consider

other times

when I simply

let go

of the fear

that was

holding me

back......

My earliest

letting-go 
memory involved

my dad,

wanting to

take me out

to float together

on his raft

in Nag's Head, N.C.

With Dad and my brother at Nag's Head.

Although I 
could swim

I was

terrified

at the thought

of falling off

and what

might

be

down

there

ready to get me!

But, I

wanted to

be brave
for  him...

As he 

carried me out

past the surf

to the calm

waters,

I clung to

him and

probably said
a prayer 

in my

 own

little way.

Suzy and Billy ~ same summer

And of course,

I loved it

bobbing along

sun on

our faces

gulls crying out

the laughter

of people

far away

on shore.

Just the

two of us.

Have you

ever let go?

Another

biggie

for me

was public

speaking.

Seventh grade

speech class

I thought

I would

faint

I thought

I'd stumble

on my

words

I thought

my peers

would laugh

and snicker.

Instead,

I floated outside

of myself ~

was able to 

make my words

not only 

coherent

but interesting

as well!

No one 

giggled

or pointed

or booed

or any

of the myriad

things 

that I imagined
might happen.

Guess what

I majored in

at college?

Yep.

Speech-Communications!

A more

intense

letting go

occurred
as a grown-up

while

struggling

with infertility.

I was so

not

in

control

with that one.

Watching

as friends

and colleagues

and what

seemed

like 

the rest of

the world

announced

that they

were expecting,

while

we'd been

trying

for one

than two

than

three 

years....

Let's

just say

it was humbling

beyond

belief.

But in the

end,

we made

our own

 announcement.

Twice.

Currently

I'm
trying
to let go
of
control
in yoga class.


I want to
do 
this:

and
this:

But can't
quite
get there...
get past my fear...
YET.




What have

you let

go of?

I'd love to know.

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